I can bear this...I can...

心疼了

淚乾了

我不懂你了

想變了

變不到

無能為力了

能做的

也做了

想著後悔了

只想著

再想著

還是算了

  

天漸漸亮　電話還　掛不斷　
雨停不了　就連道別也聽不到　
就　讓沉默　當做某段的陪伴　
我們的無奈　變得徬徨　
誰都不想為難　

為何放不下遺憾　碰不到愛的中央　
談不上承擔　也談不完　
我們原地打轉　
也許看不到永遠　到不了愛的終點　
誰都知道　那說不出的不安　
永遠沒有　答案　

天一片藍　以為它　多開朗　
雨落下來　原來它也會有哀傷　
就　讓心酸　換作放手的打算　
我們的對望　各自希望　
誰都要更堅強


喔　有什麼遺憾　
從來不問的答案　
等　我夠勇敢　我願意再往前看

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也許看不到永遠　

到不了愛的終點　...


永遠都沒有　

答案　

End of placement
End of semester
End of graduation
End of University

yea yea...I have finished my undergraduate study now...so?

That doesn't mean I am done and there is still more to come.
I am starting my postgraduate study in September under one condition: If I manage to get an offer from the University. So, nothing is confirmed yet, but I already presume myself of studying PG next year.

Not much celebrations going on since everyone's home and I am having headache, backache and stomachache from packing/ throwing/ tidying up my personal possession. During this process, I am amazed by my own ability of buying rubbish over this 5 year period. I can't believe how much rubbish or crap if you prefer, I have collected, either by buying or inheriting from other people. Actually, this wee plan of taking photos of the most amazing crap that I have got and post it up here has come across my mind, but due to consideration of the human rights, I decided not to do so.

Anyway, here are some obvious cam0-whore photos that I have taken with my wonderfully crafted Nursing Studies badge of the most prestigious University of Edinburgh (which can only be purchased with an official letter from the University)

See you next time, come again.



OK I am lying, not some photos but a couple of photos. Enjoy.

Some people said I never write blog but in actual fact, I DO OK!
I will wait and see when are those people going to find out I actually have a blog. But to be honest, I have abandoned this poor wee thing for quite a while already, sorry my Mari Juana.

Anyway, I also don't know what I have been doing since the past couple of hours, I should be studying, however, I did not.

I was so excited for the picnic this afternoon, but was quite disappointed with the weather. Thank God that it didn't rain and despite the mild weather, we DID have an enjoyable time at Author seat.

Actually right, I suddenly remember this song from GG Leong. I really liked it last time when I was in Cambridge and I have copied down the lyrics and would sing it everyday, that's how much liked it. It sorta reminds me of something. Anyway, this song is called 'the one he likes is you'. I know it's not a great song, but it happens in people's life, doesn't it  ?

歌名:他喜歡的是你
附註:
語言:粵語,  曲長:0m0s
作曲:彭海桐,  編曲:劉祖德
監製:趙增熹,  填詞:黃偉文

為何力求完美　仍然被人嫌棄
即使花過　無窮力氣
但你揮揮手　不必喘氣
就已得到他　沒半點反擊餘地
如能共諧連理　閒言我也沒理
只想得到　情人包庇
但我偏心的　卻待你偏心
競選結果　猶豫內定　怎去共你比

＊就算　不甘心輸給你
都不得不下台　他喜歡的是你
如何盡情落力　來學你
仍沒法　扭轉他的心理　看得起
就算　花一生飾演你
演得多麼細膩　無人伴我入戲
他想擁吻的　是你
危難時就算拋開我　也來為你展開兩臂＊
（連夜排練過的好戲　卻留待你演出結尾）

為何別人能夠　為何我卻沒有
天資不夠　如何補救
若我也似你　會扮作天真


也許有天　會得到他幾秒著緊

Hello people, happy chinese new year and welcome to the year of rat! Rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

As some of you may know, I have been working like a dog recently and will continue to work like a dog until the end of April. I know I shouldn't complain...but but but...it's just so tiring.....Anyway, just a quick post to let you know what I am up to and how I welcome this new rat year.

I have just finished my first placment of the year in oncology and will soon start a new one in ICU (Intensive Care Unit). Sounds exciting? Yes, it is exciting!!! Cause I can finially get rid of all those care assistant things and get my head down to the REAL nursing stuff!

On new year's eve, I am invited to join a reunion meal at Rainbow Arch, and it turned out to be really nice! We had all these yummy and posh dishes and they are all very fulfilling. I don't really care how much it would cost since it's new year, but at the end, we only paid 12 quid per person, which is very reasonable.*happy happy*

Then ytd, PCCF also had a CNY celebration, as my self-discipline broke, I joined them and made a swedish dish called Johnson's temptation, which is first introduced to 11 West Richmond by Ms ar gong and her fellow flatmates. The food there was really nice, a lot of ppl went and hope they all had a good night.

um..nothing more to report, really should get back to my essay now......*sad sad*

Here are some recent photos, enjoy!
BTW don't be surprised when you see I am pregnant in one of the photos, because I have this condition called 'stress induced pregnancy', which basically means that I am too stressed then all my 'stress' go down to my uterus and become pregnant.

First of all, I want to curse. Curse those who made all those stupid viruses, cause my laptop got this stupid virus again, yes again!!!!!!!!

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Finish cursing, back to topic.
Happy new year and welcome to the year 2008! I don't know what 2008 will be like, but I really hope that this year will be a great year for everyone of us.
Expectation for this year? No no no..I learn not to expect things, cause I don't like disappointment.
But there are several things that I hope I can be able to achieve in this year.
First, pass my third year nursing safely. I am not hoping to pass with flying colours(well, I don't mind either), but at least I don't want to stay here in August.(you know what I am saying)
Second, I really hope that I can manage to go to India for my elective. Although I am still waiting for their reply at the moment, really hope I can get it and have a safe and fun trip there.
Third, nothing special, hope all my relatives and friends can stay healthy and happy. And hope them won't miss me too much.

Here are some random photos I have taken in St' Andrews. Will upload some more later.

中學時期的我,瘋狂的愛上了張小嫻.

現在的我,也繼續那麼的愛她

 

今天突然想起那時讀過的一篇小說 <<三個A CUP的女人>>

這個故事是我讀過這麼多小說之中最喜歡的一個了

大概是我太被那女主角的身份吸引

曾有一段時期,我想成為她...因為我覺得被愛永遠比去愛的幸福

可是這個故事最後的結局卻是心酸的

 

故事男主角唐文森最後死在張小嫻的筆下

還記得我把寫他死的那一頁翻了很多遍

因為我不相信他就這様離開了這個故事

 

那本小說我讀了很多遍

每一次讀我也在想

如果唐文森沒死,故事會怎樣的發展?

或許 女主角跟他始終會分開

或許 女主角跟他這一輩子也要這樣偷偷摸摸

或許 是大團員結局

 

結果誰知道,沒有結局的故事最令人懷念,

人生也不過如此, 不是嗎?

我 等 你

我不能做到

也說不出口